I HIGHLY recommend upbeat music. I don't care how I feel, upbeat, dance type music always makes me feel better. Yes, I'm one of those white chicks that bobs her head hip hop type music. And I'm not embarrassed. It has a good beat! Great to elliptical too as well. I am really happy right now! Having tons of fun dancing around my room like an idiot. What's that saying? Dance like no one's watching, something, something, something. I don't remember. I have it on a something that hangs on the wall.
On another note, I have found today that asking for help is a lot easier than I previously thought, and it makes me feel empowered. I have a little learned to do it at work, but asking for help in my personal life was really hard. I accepted help from my mom who said she would be happy to make me some brown rice for my lunches this week. I almost didn't and did without, but my logical brain said I needed it for my typical lunch, which I'm really glad I have. And no, contrary to popular belief, I've been eating it for most lunches for probably close to a year, and I'm not bored. I have a variety in the veggies, so it's always interesting. And easy. Nice. I digress. I also asked my parents for help keeping me accountable to the hardest goal of this week: no fast food. Lately, I've gotten in a really bad habit of eating a lot of fast food and justifying it. No justifications. No denial. No fast food. I'm also off soda, but not caffeine. Five hour energy thank you very much. And only around 2 in the afternoon when I think I'm going to die.
And going back upbeat music, there is only one band (that I know of) that can make a song called "Misery" TONS of fun. Yup, Maroon 5 all the way! I'm a fan! I'm now going to go pretend like I'm cool, sing into the label maker, fling my hair across my face like I'm in the Pantene commercial, and dance like no one's watching!
Until next time!
:)
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Well, once you get started, It's kinda hard to stop!
Making goals, that is. I started, and my goals list on my dry erase board is full. I've looked at the numbers, I've gained 13.4 pounds since July 24th. Now, some of that is surgery, but it's time to let that excuse go. It's outlived it's use fullness. Here are my goals for this week:
On another note, I have decided to punt the half marathon this year. I am pretty much keeping to the elliptical since running/walking for long periods of time for some reason bothers my shoulder. A lot. So I'm working my cardio on the elliptical instead. Just an update. I'm a little disappointed, but I also have to be realistic. I would like to try and walk it next year, though. :)
Until next time,
:)
- Lose 1.5 pounds
- Track. Everything.
- No fast food. At all
- Come home for lunch 2 days and eat lunch
- Take lunch to office other 3 days. Those days I will be concentrating on my bartending job search.
- Gym: 4 days, excluding today. My goal is for Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday.
On another note, I have decided to punt the half marathon this year. I am pretty much keeping to the elliptical since running/walking for long periods of time for some reason bothers my shoulder. A lot. So I'm working my cardio on the elliptical instead. Just an update. I'm a little disappointed, but I also have to be realistic. I would like to try and walk it next year, though. :)
Until next time,
:)
Nothing's Working?!?!??!?!
AH! None of my personal pep talks are working. The ones that begin with you can do it today! end with me pulling my hair out. Not all of it. I'm just so sick and tired of the DRAMA. I was angry today, so I went to the gym. That felt SO good! I think now that I've worked through some more feelings instead of eating them, I've gotten on a better track. That and I looked up the points for my morning McDonald's Chicken sandwich. It's not pretty. I'm feeling better, every little bit of my life I get back in order. Every loose string I tie. I've only got a few more. I'm looking for part time bartending jobs, finishing up financial aid, and oddly enough, waiting for a DVD shelf. Those are it. The first one's a pretty big one. I think I'm going to try a different tack this week and drop lunch plans at least 3 days and go look, start calling, etc. It's a little daunting. I've never really had to HUNT for a job, both the job at Carmike and my current, well, kinda fell in my lap, so to speak. It's time to show myself what I'm made of. In more ways than one. I'm looking forward to a new week, a more active week, a WEIGHT LOSS week. I've gained consistently over the last 6 weeks, and it STOPS here. I actually mean it this time. I have prepared to work harder than I ever have before, because I have to prove that I'm willing to do WHATEVER IT TAKES to make this work. Whatever it takes. Yup, that's a loosely used phrase. Do I have what it takes? We'll see won't we? Hang on, cause this is going to be some kind of ride!
Until next time,
:)
Until next time,
:)
Saturday, January 22, 2011
I'm having flash backs
To a much less healthy time. Back when I gained all my weight, my daily food diary would include the following: Sonic for breakfast: Supersonic breakfast burrito with a large DR pepper (Regular, not diet). Lunch at some fast food. Dinner was usually eating either a Big Mac with large fries and another large drink, or I would go to Chili's and eat double that amount of food. ALL IN ONE DAY. Crazy. When I did the points, I stopped counting at 50. EVERY DAY. Crazy. Yesterday I ate a whole large pizza. By myself, with crazy bread. Man, I felt like I was going to puke all night. It was gross, and I'm not looking for a repeat.
I gained 2.6 this week. I've been eating similar to the above. I've been feeling feelings. It's crazy not fun. I think I'm going to make it my mantra this week to eat half what I've eaten last week (even then it will be borderline too much) and I'm going to be so busy I probably won't make it to the gym but once, but I'm going to track like crazy. It's going to be great. :)
Until next time,
:)
I gained 2.6 this week. I've been eating similar to the above. I've been feeling feelings. It's crazy not fun. I think I'm going to make it my mantra this week to eat half what I've eaten last week (even then it will be borderline too much) and I'm going to be so busy I probably won't make it to the gym but once, but I'm going to track like crazy. It's going to be great. :)
Until next time,
:)
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
It's been 3 weeks and I think I'm going to gain a....wait WHAT?
Okay, so I know today's Tuesday. It's not Saturday. I know I weighed in on Saturday. I've been a little busy. When I went to weigh in, I was so prepared for around a 4-5 pound gain. I had been really good for the first two weeks of break, and then came the last week. It was bad. Really bad. Ate out just about every meal, didn't track. I gained 1 pound. I know it's not a loss. But over Christmas and New Years, I only gained 1 POUND!!! Okay, I'm pretty excited. I'm now kicking it in high gear to lose that one pound and get back on a losing track. Sounds kinda weird, but it's cool all at the same time.
I have a lot to catch up on with you but I also have laundry and I need to log a number of months of gas receipts to calculate mileage per gallon. Yup, I do that. :)
Until next time,
:)
I have a lot to catch up on with you but I also have laundry and I need to log a number of months of gas receipts to calculate mileage per gallon. Yup, I do that. :)
Until next time,
:)
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Auld Lang Syne
Whenever I hear that song at midnight on New Year's, I've always wondered what it meant, so I googled it. It means old long since or long, long ago. Now why do we sing this on New Year's? I have no idea, but it's kind of a nice song. Anyways, it's been terribly long since my last post. I feel I'm getting so busy...no excuses. This is supposed to be therapeutic for me. So I have a few New Year's Resolutions and then I'll continue on my merry way with what I came to write in this post originally, which now after googling Auld Lang Syne, I have completely forgotten. Maybe it'll come to me.
1. Blog more. It really does help release those feelings I feel...about weight anyways.
2. Journal about the more private things. Obviously, those won't be posted here or anywhere, but it will be good for me to type them too.
3. Start losing weight again. I'll explain below.
4. Stop picking my hands/fingers. It's a REALLY bad habit.
I think those are good ones.
So regarding #3. Over the last, oh, six weeks or so, I have gained and lost alternately the same three pounds. I feel like one of those really nifty yo-yos, except I feel more dizzy. I have a good week, and then BAM I slack off. GR. The holidays should be interesting. I haven't weighed in at WW since December 18th. December 25th was a Saturday and we didn't have a meeting. Today is January 1st and we didn't have a meeting today either. So I weigh in next week for the first time in three weeks. I'm not going to lie. I don't really know about it. I didn't do so bad with food the first week, but didn't work out either, can't really tell because I've gotten really bad about not tracking. Again. I should probably add that to my New Year's Resolutions. Track more.
I just got to move all my stuff back in my room after the floors. I re did the arraignment of the furniture and like it much better than before. I'm working on spring cleaning all my stuff and deciding which stuff I can trash, what I can give to Goodwill, and what I need but needs to go into storage (kitchen dishes etc).
I graduated from Bartending School! I worked my first gig last night, it was a private party. It was so much fun! I'm going to start working on applying to bars/restaurants etc in the area next week, you know in all that free time I have. If you're having a party and need a bartender, drop me a note: leighehill@gmail.com :)
Until next time,
:)
1. Blog more. It really does help release those feelings I feel...about weight anyways.
2. Journal about the more private things. Obviously, those won't be posted here or anywhere, but it will be good for me to type them too.
3. Start losing weight again. I'll explain below.
4. Stop picking my hands/fingers. It's a REALLY bad habit.
I think those are good ones.
So regarding #3. Over the last, oh, six weeks or so, I have gained and lost alternately the same three pounds. I feel like one of those really nifty yo-yos, except I feel more dizzy. I have a good week, and then BAM I slack off. GR. The holidays should be interesting. I haven't weighed in at WW since December 18th. December 25th was a Saturday and we didn't have a meeting. Today is January 1st and we didn't have a meeting today either. So I weigh in next week for the first time in three weeks. I'm not going to lie. I don't really know about it. I didn't do so bad with food the first week, but didn't work out either, can't really tell because I've gotten really bad about not tracking. Again. I should probably add that to my New Year's Resolutions. Track more.
I just got to move all my stuff back in my room after the floors. I re did the arraignment of the furniture and like it much better than before. I'm working on spring cleaning all my stuff and deciding which stuff I can trash, what I can give to Goodwill, and what I need but needs to go into storage (kitchen dishes etc).
I graduated from Bartending School! I worked my first gig last night, it was a private party. It was so much fun! I'm going to start working on applying to bars/restaurants etc in the area next week, you know in all that free time I have. If you're having a party and need a bartender, drop me a note: leighehill@gmail.com :)
Until next time,
:)
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