Wow, well I really meant to post about the 100th thing that I thought of. I'm going to run 100 laps at the track on campus. I already have 4 down. It was funny actually, I ran 4 laps around the track, and was so excited that I ran a mile, I then walked a half a mile, and while I was cooling down, I read the sign that said 1 mile is 6.5 laps. *Rolls eyes and laughs aloud*. I laughed about it all the way to my car, which was a half hour hike. I am certainly getting much more exercise now than I was, it's awesome. I suppose if I had read that sign before, I would have only run 3 laps, the 4th almost killed me, but I did it because I thought it was a mile, now I'll do it because I know I can. There was also a sign directing which way to go around the track on which days, not really useful reading that one either, it is the best idea to go the same direction as everyone else and hope the first person on the track went about the correct way. And as I typed that, it sounded very passive and follower to me, and I almost didn't like it, but I suppose there are times, when it's best to follow, and there are times when it's best to break from the pack and lead. Lose the battle, win the war types of scenarios, or is Win the battle Lose the war? Food for thought.
I think the second thing I'm going to do that involves 100 is go 100 days with NO soda. I do not count Sweet Tea in this, not sure why, and this is not cutting out caffeine. I almost said I wouldn't survive without it, however, I made it a full day on campus studying all day and a commute an hour each way very early and late and worked out at night (before the drive) all without caffeine. It was impressive really. I was impressed. Almost impressed enough to try it again the next day, but not willing to push my luck. :)
I lost a pound this week, and I have no idea how, and I hate that, I'd like to be able to spot good behavior so I can repeat. I'll just chalk it up to being sick again, allergies I guess, I coughed up so much gunk...sorry that's a little gross. I ate out a good bit this week, but I made decent choices, and left off the add ons (fries, soda, etc). I feel so...so....so....well I feel something, that's for sure, which is a good thing I suppose. I'm attempting to figure it out. I'll get there.
I have so many conflicting ideas running around in my head right now, for each of my blogs, it's starting to get confusing. I suppose if I blogged more often, I wouldn't have this trouble :)
Well, all these thoughts spinning around are limiting my ability to sleep, so I'm going to blog up a storm while my other computer formats itself and re-installs Windows (ask me how much fun that is) and hopefully go to sleep after that.
Until next time,
:)
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
100 Post-iversarry
Well folks, we've made it to post #100! In honor of this post, I'm going to drink 100 ounces of water today, wait, I (try) to do that anyways. Hm, I remember in school on the 100th day of school, we all brought 100 of something into class. The only one I really remember is when I brought 100 highlights magazines in. Not sure how long I had to collect those for that.
I know I said I was going to be accountable for all I ate, I'm re-starting that today. This weekend was....let's go with special. And I suppose I made up for it by barely eating yesterday. Go wrap at 7, Mini Lean Cuisine at 3, and I didn't really eat dinner last night. Well, to be correct, technically I didn't eat last night. I got a little hungry and had a bowl of oatmeal at the office before I left, but I wasn't really hungry other than that.
I'm in class and we're about to start, so I'm going to skitattle.
I'll figure out something really nifty to celebrate post #100 and share it when I figure it out.
Until next time,
:)
I know I said I was going to be accountable for all I ate, I'm re-starting that today. This weekend was....let's go with special. And I suppose I made up for it by barely eating yesterday. Go wrap at 7, Mini Lean Cuisine at 3, and I didn't really eat dinner last night. Well, to be correct, technically I didn't eat last night. I got a little hungry and had a bowl of oatmeal at the office before I left, but I wasn't really hungry other than that.
I'm in class and we're about to start, so I'm going to skitattle.
I'll figure out something really nifty to celebrate post #100 and share it when I figure it out.
Until next time,
:)
Saturday, September 3, 2011
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
Or in my case, over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and you get the picture. :)
So for the weekly update. I gained 2.4 pounds this week. When the number came in, I was weighed by my WW leader, and she noticed it had been every other week, alternating lose/gain, and she asked what was up. I broke down. Just thinking about it will bring more tears. I'm stressed, spinning my wheels, and going to see my therapist. I'm going to very easily hit my limit and this "stay just about the same weight for 1.5 years" is REALLY starting to get to me, along with a mile-long list of other things. Big time. She pointed out that I maintained my 30 pounds lost for the last year and a half, and while that's true, and comforting, the whole thing is still frustrating. My big goal now is to start thinking before I eat, and asses if I'm eating for emotional reasons (stress, anxious, frustrated, upset, nervous, happy, sad, pensive, the list goes on and on) or if I'm actually hungry. If I'm starting to crave food for emotional reasons, I need to stop and JOURNAL. Doesn't have to be a formal blog entry, although it will probably turn into one, it can start out as a scrap of a napkin. I just need to get it out! The part about insanity, is I've been doing the same thing for the last year and a half, expecting different results, it's time to break the cycle. I know I've said this time and time again, and you're probably thinking, I'll believe it when I see it. Trust me, I'm thinking the same thing. I can only go round and round for so long. This might just be my time. Correction: This IS my time. I'm going to start working out again (until October I have access to a gym at home and at school, after October, I'll just have the school one), start back with Pilates, watching the fast food, and NO SODA. This time's for real. Now I've found coffee, there's a Starbucks on campus (thank goodness!) and there's always the energy shots. If you see me drink soda, this is my written permission to take it from me and trash it. I also think it would be helpful to be accountable to someone other than me for everything I eat. It's a lot easier to get away with small indiscretions (that add up!) when it's just me tracking for me. Maybe I'll start posting daily, at the end of the day, what I ate that day, and evaluate where I did well, and where I could use some work. Who knows, maybe this will help me find the emotional eating pattern so I can break it!
I'm confident the gain is because of the crazy schedule and all the fast food. I was also frustrated and upset yesterday so the half bag of Reece's pieces probably didn't help. The word "probably" could come out of that last sentence, and it'd be more true. One of my co-workers did introduce me to something fabulous yesterday, probably one of the best food choices I made all week (one of, because just about nothing will top my fruit and cheese decision on Monday). Subway now has flat bread, and she introduced me to a ham and cheese flat bread sandwich with lettuce, tomato, and ranch dressing on it. Supper yummy, and only 13 points. Okay, maybe I should take the "only" out of there, and "good choice" out of the previous sentence, because I just calculated the points. To be fair, it did have two kinds of cheese. By putting in light mayo for the ranch, it's 11 points. Taking out one of the cheeses, it's 9 points. Now that's something I can sink my teeth into and not feel guilty about getting chips :)
That would be a prime example of how fooling food can be, especially eating fast food. I know I'm guilty of thinking because I see the name Subway, that it's going to be healthy. Kind of the same thing as "low-fat" or "fat free" or "sugar free" etc. For instance, If I gave you two choices at Subway, both on whole grain bread, 6" subs, with cheese: Tuna, or Turkey Bacon Avocado, which would you guess to have fewer points? If you guessed the Tuna, you'd be wrong. The tuna has 30 grams of fat, 44 carbs, 5 fiber, and 21 protein, coming in at 14 points. The Turkey Bacon Avocado has 15 grams of fat, 49 carbs, 7 fiber, and 24 protein, coming in at 11 points. I would have guessed the tuna too.
I realized today that what also probably contributed to my gain, was the amount of soda I took in. That would be 32 ounces every morning, and on school days, the soda never really stopped. I'm drowning myself in water now to try and wash that out of my system, but it'll take a couple of days. I do need the caffeine if I'm going to be starting my days at 6:30 regularly, which for the remainder of the near future, I will be. My mom suggested to me (and my sister has been bugging me about this for a while) that I need to try coffee. ::GROAN:: My mom suggested a latte, because they have milk in them. I said, okay, I'll give this a go. I tried one. And liked it. After doing some research, I found a latte made with skim milk at Dunkin Donuts for only 2 points! They also have a wake up wrap, which will have ham, egg, and cheese in a tortilla, for only 4 points! I think I found new breakfast! It's really amazing what can be gained by a little research. Thank you college football for providing the venue for me to be still enough and not distracted enough to research all this :)
I just re-read all this, and realized I was a little repetitive on the soda thing. I wrote the second part about soda before the first part. I suppose, consciously, I know I REALLY need to stop the soda. *mental note to self*
Something I noticed this week was my loss of the ability to feel (or feign feeling) sympathy. Mostly when I hear people say "I'm tired". I had practiced, and gotten pretty good at the sympathy routine, and I was starting to feel human, instead of cold-hearted. Then I do the school thing, have really long days (which I CHOOSE, I KNOW) and I lose ALL sympathy, especially for "I'm tired". YOU'RE tired?!?!?! Now, I know, everyone has different situations, limits, and etc, and their situation may be equivalent to mine, but just tailored for their life, but it's still something I'm going to have to re-learn over the next few weeks, to shift my perspective back. I say this to say, if you tell me you're tired, and I look at you like you're crazy, I'm sorry (and I'll probably apologize on the spot), but I'm re-working on that grown-up, mature, perspective thing. My poor brain can only learn and catalog one thing at a time. No multi-tasking here. That's no excuse of course, but to be fair, this isn't on the tip-top of my list of things to accomplish, it's pretty high, but my classes (at least) rank above it. I'll get my groove back (isn't that a kids TV show?), but it might take a couple weeks.
I've been patiently searching the Internet for a few weeks to find an ultra-basic cooking class that wasn't going to put me out a ton of cash. By patient, I mean, mostly ignoring it because I got frustrated, not a good habit, but I digress. Then tonight, I got a wild hair, and decided to check out the Whole Foods cooking class schedule again. Turns out, the second Saturday, from 10a-1p, they have a "Welcome to your kitchen" hands-on class, for only $49! Yes, I'm already registered, and SUPER excited!!
I really need to go, because it's late and I'm tired, and I need to get up early tomorrow morning. I got 10 hours of un-interrupted sleep last night (9-7) and I'd like to shoot for at least 8 tonight. I'll probably need a nap tomorrow afternoon, but that's what Sunday afternoons are for. :)
I had a couple runner-up titles for this post:
Look out world, Leigh's learning to cook!
Tuna sandwich vs. Turkey Bacon Avocado??? And the winner is.....
But I really liked the insanity thing, my WW leader told me that today in our discussion, it really rang true.
Until next time,
:)
So for the weekly update. I gained 2.4 pounds this week. When the number came in, I was weighed by my WW leader, and she noticed it had been every other week, alternating lose/gain, and she asked what was up. I broke down. Just thinking about it will bring more tears. I'm stressed, spinning my wheels, and going to see my therapist. I'm going to very easily hit my limit and this "stay just about the same weight for 1.5 years" is REALLY starting to get to me, along with a mile-long list of other things. Big time. She pointed out that I maintained my 30 pounds lost for the last year and a half, and while that's true, and comforting, the whole thing is still frustrating. My big goal now is to start thinking before I eat, and asses if I'm eating for emotional reasons (stress, anxious, frustrated, upset, nervous, happy, sad, pensive, the list goes on and on) or if I'm actually hungry. If I'm starting to crave food for emotional reasons, I need to stop and JOURNAL. Doesn't have to be a formal blog entry, although it will probably turn into one, it can start out as a scrap of a napkin. I just need to get it out! The part about insanity, is I've been doing the same thing for the last year and a half, expecting different results, it's time to break the cycle. I know I've said this time and time again, and you're probably thinking, I'll believe it when I see it. Trust me, I'm thinking the same thing. I can only go round and round for so long. This might just be my time. Correction: This IS my time. I'm going to start working out again (until October I have access to a gym at home and at school, after October, I'll just have the school one), start back with Pilates, watching the fast food, and NO SODA. This time's for real. Now I've found coffee, there's a Starbucks on campus (thank goodness!) and there's always the energy shots. If you see me drink soda, this is my written permission to take it from me and trash it. I also think it would be helpful to be accountable to someone other than me for everything I eat. It's a lot easier to get away with small indiscretions (that add up!) when it's just me tracking for me. Maybe I'll start posting daily, at the end of the day, what I ate that day, and evaluate where I did well, and where I could use some work. Who knows, maybe this will help me find the emotional eating pattern so I can break it!
I'm confident the gain is because of the crazy schedule and all the fast food. I was also frustrated and upset yesterday so the half bag of Reece's pieces probably didn't help. The word "probably" could come out of that last sentence, and it'd be more true. One of my co-workers did introduce me to something fabulous yesterday, probably one of the best food choices I made all week (one of, because just about nothing will top my fruit and cheese decision on Monday). Subway now has flat bread, and she introduced me to a ham and cheese flat bread sandwich with lettuce, tomato, and ranch dressing on it. Supper yummy, and only 13 points. Okay, maybe I should take the "only" out of there, and "good choice" out of the previous sentence, because I just calculated the points. To be fair, it did have two kinds of cheese. By putting in light mayo for the ranch, it's 11 points. Taking out one of the cheeses, it's 9 points. Now that's something I can sink my teeth into and not feel guilty about getting chips :)
That would be a prime example of how fooling food can be, especially eating fast food. I know I'm guilty of thinking because I see the name Subway, that it's going to be healthy. Kind of the same thing as "low-fat" or "fat free" or "sugar free" etc. For instance, If I gave you two choices at Subway, both on whole grain bread, 6" subs, with cheese: Tuna, or Turkey Bacon Avocado, which would you guess to have fewer points? If you guessed the Tuna, you'd be wrong. The tuna has 30 grams of fat, 44 carbs, 5 fiber, and 21 protein, coming in at 14 points. The Turkey Bacon Avocado has 15 grams of fat, 49 carbs, 7 fiber, and 24 protein, coming in at 11 points. I would have guessed the tuna too.
I realized today that what also probably contributed to my gain, was the amount of soda I took in. That would be 32 ounces every morning, and on school days, the soda never really stopped. I'm drowning myself in water now to try and wash that out of my system, but it'll take a couple of days. I do need the caffeine if I'm going to be starting my days at 6:30 regularly, which for the remainder of the near future, I will be. My mom suggested to me (and my sister has been bugging me about this for a while) that I need to try coffee. ::GROAN:: My mom suggested a latte, because they have milk in them. I said, okay, I'll give this a go. I tried one. And liked it. After doing some research, I found a latte made with skim milk at Dunkin Donuts for only 2 points! They also have a wake up wrap, which will have ham, egg, and cheese in a tortilla, for only 4 points! I think I found new breakfast! It's really amazing what can be gained by a little research. Thank you college football for providing the venue for me to be still enough and not distracted enough to research all this :)
I just re-read all this, and realized I was a little repetitive on the soda thing. I wrote the second part about soda before the first part. I suppose, consciously, I know I REALLY need to stop the soda. *mental note to self*
Something I noticed this week was my loss of the ability to feel (or feign feeling) sympathy. Mostly when I hear people say "I'm tired". I had practiced, and gotten pretty good at the sympathy routine, and I was starting to feel human, instead of cold-hearted. Then I do the school thing, have really long days (which I CHOOSE, I KNOW) and I lose ALL sympathy, especially for "I'm tired". YOU'RE tired?!?!?! Now, I know, everyone has different situations, limits, and etc, and their situation may be equivalent to mine, but just tailored for their life, but it's still something I'm going to have to re-learn over the next few weeks, to shift my perspective back. I say this to say, if you tell me you're tired, and I look at you like you're crazy, I'm sorry (and I'll probably apologize on the spot), but I'm re-working on that grown-up, mature, perspective thing. My poor brain can only learn and catalog one thing at a time. No multi-tasking here. That's no excuse of course, but to be fair, this isn't on the tip-top of my list of things to accomplish, it's pretty high, but my classes (at least) rank above it. I'll get my groove back (isn't that a kids TV show?), but it might take a couple weeks.
I've been patiently searching the Internet for a few weeks to find an ultra-basic cooking class that wasn't going to put me out a ton of cash. By patient, I mean, mostly ignoring it because I got frustrated, not a good habit, but I digress. Then tonight, I got a wild hair, and decided to check out the Whole Foods cooking class schedule again. Turns out, the second Saturday, from 10a-1p, they have a "Welcome to your kitchen" hands-on class, for only $49! Yes, I'm already registered, and SUPER excited!!
I really need to go, because it's late and I'm tired, and I need to get up early tomorrow morning. I got 10 hours of un-interrupted sleep last night (9-7) and I'd like to shoot for at least 8 tonight. I'll probably need a nap tomorrow afternoon, but that's what Sunday afternoons are for. :)
I had a couple runner-up titles for this post:
Look out world, Leigh's learning to cook!
Tuna sandwich vs. Turkey Bacon Avocado??? And the winner is.....
But I really liked the insanity thing, my WW leader told me that today in our discussion, it really rang true.
Until next time,
:)
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Priorities change like the seasons
I haven't posted in a while, I know. School started this week. I guess now that I think of it, I posted on Monday, so there. I've been doing OK this week in terms of food. It is nice to have a ROUTINE on the days I have school. Do I have one for work days? Absolutely not. I never have. Breakfast at 6:30 AM, lunch at 2PM, and dinner (if I eat it) around 8PM. No snacks. Not a good thing. I'm working on one thing at a time.
Unfortunately, my first priority is not my eating. Granted, I'm not letting it go, just admitting I only have 100% of energy. Right now, 100% is devoted to school. I'm making the best decisions I can, trying to still learn about myself, and not snacking myself into oblivion, but packing lunches? You can forget it. At least for now. I do control myself. I haven't gone crazy.
Last week I lost 1.5, I still have no idea. I might have maintained this week, I'm a little unsure. I feel about the same, if not a little lighter. I might weigh myself tomorrow morning for kicks and giggles.
I'll still be around, and heck, I might just do better than I give myself credit. I've already tentatively planned to work out on my school nights while I'm on campus. Go me.
Until next time,
:)
Unfortunately, my first priority is not my eating. Granted, I'm not letting it go, just admitting I only have 100% of energy. Right now, 100% is devoted to school. I'm making the best decisions I can, trying to still learn about myself, and not snacking myself into oblivion, but packing lunches? You can forget it. At least for now. I do control myself. I haven't gone crazy.
Last week I lost 1.5, I still have no idea. I might have maintained this week, I'm a little unsure. I feel about the same, if not a little lighter. I might weigh myself tomorrow morning for kicks and giggles.
I'll still be around, and heck, I might just do better than I give myself credit. I've already tentatively planned to work out on my school nights while I'm on campus. Go me.
Until next time,
:)
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